Poppy ! And hmmph, I wonder.

Well, I've been skipping the past few days. Hmmph, or I would rather say, yesterday? Nothing much has happened recently, except for a few happening friendly matches and of course, the sms'es. Somehow, I've learned bit by bit, that she's someone different, pretty different. Like I usually would say, everyone's unique, and everyone's good at something. Screwing your studies, blundering your papers... They're normal stuff. Everybody does that, of course, in your mind, there are those people who's never missed an A, and there are lots of people who passed with flying colours. What can I say? Life's unfair? Nah, those people, are idiots. Not that I wanna prejudice against the "so-called-smarter class" of people, but really, these people, has no life. Well not all of course, just in case any of you who read this felt guilty as charged... But I'm sure, you would bring forward your point in your argument. Right or wrong, what I mention here may not be true, or it may be true to a certain extent, but who knows except you, yourself. Who else can be cleared about yourself other than you? Of course, except Him.

Tonight, I was quite surprised myself. Loads of surprise. Firstly, her. Hmmph, to compliment her, she looks good, better than her in pictures :p. There's something to that smile, not to be quoted from batman. I don't know what to say about it anymore. Its..... Special. She's chirpy as usual, but of course, she's different from the first time I saw her after that night. Heh, maybe I haven't been paying attention enough in the car, or either, I was carried away by the little fear that chilled through my spine, or rather, nerves. Well, to start with, I'm supposed to "get punished" with drinks. But then, hmmmph, she dropped before I realised. Well, 3 glasses dear. If you ever wondered how much you drank tonight. Even Kenneth was quite surprised. Of course, its the first time we clubbed... She was pretty energitic, she danced throughout the night, and I must say I'm impressed by the stamina. Whatever happens in the club, stays in the club. Hush dan, hush. But, its the smile. I can't deny that. I think I'm starting to sound like Joker. =.=

Right, we all did the same thing again. I don't think she'll realise, but lol, we left her in the car for supper. It happened once, and it seems like history repeated itself tonight. You would probably kill me for this but, heh. I don't know :p. It's been a tiring night trying to keep up with her, catch up with friends, picking up the tune, flowing with the music. I'd hope things would carry on for the better, or rather, move forward? I don't know what are the proper words to describe what I meant, but well, I think I should understand. Good night.

Wassup Barcelonaaa!

Well, it's been quite some time since I last clubbed with Kenneth and the rest. Hmmph, nothing much has happened recently, except that today, I discovered that.... IMU cup's dota is gonna be a tough event. And I'm still wondering if I should play. Damn... If I would, then how is it that my juniors are gonna show their true colours? Lawl, maybe they won't. I thought. I would probably be still thinking that.... They might not have enough experience to fight Kyle, or even Ken and the rest. Its gonna be tough for them to handle. But... Should I play? Or Shoulnd't I? I don't know... The recent ICCG event, has taught me alot, but, it might not be enough. Who knows? Well, I shall leave it up to You to decide, and lead me on.

Slepy and tipsy as I am, I was in barcelona tonight, together with Kyle, Joel and Kenneth. It has been quite messy a night, with Joel and Kyle losing themselves at the dance floor. And there was this friend of Kenneth, which was quite hard to handle. Hmmph, he's not a girl, but he drinks alot, and seldom.... Pretty seldom, we beat him to it =/. Well, I did go to the dance floor, but Barcelona, is still Barcelona. For those who've been there, I'm sure you know what I mean.

Rather, I was messaging this girl. Hmmph, I was tipsy, I think, but I'm sure that I was sober or rather, concious enough to be replying her. Like I've mentioned in my message, alcohol would've taken quite a toll on me, but it would make me think less, rather than considering my risks. If you would read this, I think you'll know what I mean. But well, I do mean what I've said in those messages, regardlesss of whether I'm sober, or concious enough.

Saturday ! I just can't wait for that day to come, and I"m really looking forward to it. Hopefully everything will turn out good. I shall go to bed soon, as my eyes are... Already half? Good night.

ICCG and When things don't come off.

Hmmph, lots of stuff have been happening lately, that I didn't really have the time to blog. First there was clubbing on thursday night, which we practically did nothing but drink, dance and stone. lol. VSOP is strong. Only one bottle that night, and the 4 of us were suffering. 2 of us were drunk. But well, it was a good night. We all had fun, and of course, that's what we're there for.

Then, I had to do presentation for my research proposal on friday. Damn, it was one hell. I don't really know what happened during the presentation, but for once, I think I presented quite well. Well, the sense of humour. I guess.. Heh. But then, I practically couldn't answer any of the questions that were forwarded to me. Damn, what's with IMU lecturers... They think like 300 miles ahead. But then, getting fired... I think everyone's gonna be numb with it after a few times of such bombardments.

Tonight... Arrrr. Sad Saturday. HMMMPH... ICCG rocks. We played like 5 matches and gawd, I was playing Lich for 5 games. Damn. The first few games were easy, we cruised thru and such, bullying our opponents. BUt the last game, the finals against DNA.sk, was ugly lol. We got wrapped and sent home like hot nasi lemaks. Darn, who cares. I won 160 bucks. lol.

And then I settled down on my bed, hugged my laptop, and started talking to this girl. Damn, sometimes, I really think, I have all my attention drawn to her. She's nice to talk to, like she claims, sweet, chirpy, cheerful, playful, naughty. I don't know how accurate these adjectives are, but angelic is definitely inaccurate. :p. I know you would read this someday, and grin over this. Then, she told me about her princinples, which in the beginning got me a little shocked, but I think I can accept what she thinks, even though I still think that it isn't really that decent, but oh well, this argument is never gonna end.

I know that she's really looking forward to this coming Saturday's visit to poppy. So am I. BUt hmmph, after what she's told me, I do worry a little. She tells me that she trusts me, and I'm glad that she does. Well I guess I've gotta thank Steph for all those good testimonials she's given me. :p I wonder what's gonna happen next? Well, the future is not to be predicted, but Lord, I leave everything in your hands, and I hope that you'll lead me on. Nitez.

Of Girls, hurt and emoness.

Well, I fetched this girl home the other day. She was a cool girl. She talks alot, and I think I kinda like her personality and attitude. Hmmph, I think I didn't judge her wrong, she seems like the girl I thought she would be, but a little more. This wonderful, chirpy girl has somewhat captured my heart in some way, that I couldn't resist messaging her right after I dropped her to pick up her car. Her name was Yi Jing. Well, its never wrong to make another good friend, and like she said, we clicked well together like bffs. Ah, a new term that I've learned recently lol. Best Friends Forever. Heh. She's a nice girl, and I really look forward to clubbing with her. I wonder what she'll be like. She looks pretty playful to me, and I hope I'm not being proven wrong.

Quite alot of stuff happened this weekend. I clubbed on saturday night at cocobanana with the usual bunch again. Haha, for the first time, this club, is infested with 'bak kut teh' and 'seafood'. My gawd. First there's this bunch of idiots who're making a fools of themselves.

You know, Veen, I really think its about time for you to settle down and appreciate him. Be less playful. Eventhough I think that you wouldn't listen to this or anything like it but... I don't know. Hmmph. Well its really up to you to decide your own life. I saw your pictures with him and your vacation. Sometimes I think, that I'm neutral with you, that I don't have feelings anymore, but things are tough to get away with after being together for so long. I might seem normal infront of you, but sometimes, I do get jealous and abit hurt looking at your pictures. But of course, I know I have to stay strong and pull myself through this. Anyway, I do hope that you both will work things out, and all the best. You may not read this, you may. Who knows?

Then today I went out with Steph and Amy. Ahhh... LoL, nowhere weird, just grocery shopping and dinner. I found out that, this clubbing queen, is also junk food queen. I wonder how she keeps a body of that shape with the amount of chocs, sweets and junks. Haha, but then, listening to her talk about the other two guys that they met in clubs last friday, I now think that... Guys at this age are pretty immatured. Hmmph. Chinese school guys, english school guys, they differ in thoughts, maturity and even their perceptions. It doesn't only apply to guys, even girls. Its obvious, on how to differentiate a chinese educated person from an english educated soul. Back to Amy, she was complaining about these two guys who were annoying here, as they talk a little too much. Hmmmph, I do know about such things, even though this is the first time I see people who talk too much, and they don't even think before they talk.

I got quite taken aback, rather than pissed off when these guys said to me: Its not that I don't trust you, its just that these are normal procedures. Hello babies? What are you talking about? Normal procedures? You don't even know who am I, and they barely even know you. Well, I guess I can keep my patience for such things.

Pretty tired lately. Stressed up with statistics... Proposal, Presentation. What else are they gonna throw to us? I wonder. Screw B-pharm. Screwww B-pharm but oh well, I'm in sem 7, and there's only a year left. Wish me all the best.

A routine day, Ladies night

Hmmphhh... I woke up today, stoninggg... Stone baby stone. Stoningly and astonishingly, I managed to wake myself up, struggled off my bed because of a promise I've made yesterday. Oh well, promises are promises, and they're not meant to be broken, I think, or at least, I've changed my mind since then. Don't make a promise, and don't give someone your words, if you cannot make it. Damn, this Malaysian 'tidak apa' attitude has really taken quite a toll off me and the youths today. I don't know about people, but I do feel bad, when I give someone my words and I'm unable to meet them.

Eh, emo night. Here I am sitting alone drinking beer, flashing back on what that has just happened. A good game with friends while I suddenly get this call, saying that friends couldn't start another's car. Ah, the second call came, and I learned that the driver was drunk, but I didn't know who she was. Well, I gave someone my word that I would go to her rescue, errr, that's the way she put it, so I went.

We waited and waited and waited, patiently, for her friends to drive her car out, but it doesn't seem to arrive. They came back, complaining about the immobilizer system in Civic. Ah, I didn't know its that complicated either. I knew it was shitty but, lol. So I had to fetch her home. She curled up at the back seat in the car, together with Steph who was struggling to get her to lie down properly. Ah, she wouldn't lol. She kept slipping. And then Steph mentioned that she looked cute and sweet when she's sleeping. I wonder what she looks like. I totally missed out on it, but oh well, no bad intentions though. Heh.

We went yumcha'ing with Amy and the rest of the gang. Damn, chinese educated guys. They are sooo... I don't know how to describe it. Well, better say nothing if you can't say anything nice. They were friendly, but lol. We both can see that Amy's getting abit mad and irritated with them. Ladies, ladies. Ah, and yes, my mandarin improved. Kononnya. LOL. Thanks for the compliment darling. And, if you would read this someday, I miss clubbing with you ladies lol.

Hmmph, so we had to send her home. She practically threw herself at the first thing she can find. Me. I was abit surprised, but oh well... We got her off the car, and I carried her to the elevator. It has been quite some time since I last carried someone. She isn't that heavy, but my leg hurts. I had a cut at the bottom of foot. Err, again, with no bad intention or whatsoever, she's nice to hug. We had to carry her along, till she reached her home. Her room was abit messy but oh well... Haha... And the finally threw herself on her bed. Good night girl. I don't think she'll remember anything tomorrow.

Then I came back, talking to Veen. Ah, as usual lol. She, trying to prove herself as the not-so-good-girl to me. Heh, you're a naughty girl I know. But, its about time for you to settle down if you take your relationship seriously. But well, I enjoy talking to you, alot. All your nonsense and craps, makes you interesting. Too bad, what's over is over. I do kinda like my life now. Single, not-quite-available, or rather I don't really wanna get attached. Errr, I was just saying. If the right one comes, I think I'll go for it too. There have been a few ladies that I am quite fond of, but well, like I said, I don't really wanna go for it. If you would believe me. Heh.

I should go continue my emoness, drowning my sorrows with the classic bottle of carls, I don't really remember when I bought it. LoL. Nite ladies, morning gents.

Tipsiness and Lots of Fun

I haven't been writing much lately. Errr, there haven't been much to write. But tonight, I went clubbing agian, with TCC and the rest, of course, Kenneth was there. Both of them were drunk, but there was this girl. Her nick was Cy, same initial as mine. She's friendly, interesting and such, but she knows her limits too well. She's kinda like a good girl, but I'm interested to know her more. Oh well, practically, I just wanna make some friends and know everyone better.

Shit I'm freaking tipsy when I'm typing this. Errr, I just realised, I practically attended none of the classes at all this semester. Damn, what's going on man dan... Ah well, the meeting today with our perceptors went smoothly, even though we almost ran outta patience waiting for them. Oh well, we've gotta understand anyway, they're busy. Now that I know, my English sucks, no matter how many of you think that its at least okay. Damn proposal. It took me like half the night till morning to work on it and get it done. Oh well, at least its okay now. Pray for me and hope that I'll get a result that is good enough to pull my CGPA up. I think. I hope, I pray.


My new phone.... =.=. Its hard to use.. I think, or rather, I'm not used to it. I hope that the additional functions will become useful soon. Nitez.

A new baby, and another great start.

What's over is over. I kept telling myself. My mum told me the same thing too, over and over agian. Well, I think its about time to really pick up the bits of myself that was left over, and move on forward. Even though we still keep in touch and we're in a good relationship, things should move on. You're now attached. Things should change, and nothing remains the same as last time.

And yes, the long wait for the new baby... Has finally ended. The PDA arrived today, after a long wait at the mamak, in the cyber, in McD, and back to mamak again. I wonder what the guy who's helping me to get the phone did, but oh well, I did have quite a good time testing my patience, talking nonsense to Kenneth. I mean, we do actually share alot of stuff, guys stuff, which we seldom talk to girls about. And of course, guys are guys, business talk. =.= We both have this idea, that liqour buffet is gonna be a bang. I wonder, all those plans... Are they gonna work someday? lol. I've yet to check the phone out... I'm eager to. :p I shall skip all the unnecessary details.

I heard Kelly's back in KL. Can't wait to see her, and of course, claim my date. I should go to bed. Haven't been sleeping much and I've been skipping a little too many classes. Damn work. Proposal is really taking quite a toll on everyone. Nitez.

Emoness and Chillingz

It haven't been a good day, eventhough the night drinking session was good. Veen, I don't really know how you get yourself into such trouble. You called me today, and in your sobbing voice you tell me your concerns. What can I do for you, really? Who am I in this life of yours. I know, as a friend, I've always tried my best to help and advise you, but, this is abit different from other situations. Its about you and your relationship. If you really think that he's not the one for you, in my little heart says, leave him and start all over again. But I really couldn't bear to tell you that straight forward, cos in my heart, I know you're trying your best to make this work. But yet, I really don't understand. Why bother forcing yourself into something that you wouldn't be happy of. You complained, that he's a good friend, but he's over-controlling and over-protective. He restricts you from your freedom, and who has the right to do so, when the Lord himself gives you the freedom to do anything you wanted? Freewill. remember? He's actually quite fucked up, but yet I don't think you're seeing it the way I'm looking at it. I really don't know what else to tell you Veen. You've been a dear to me, but yet I'm helpless when you need me.

Enough about the emoness. I went for a drink tonight, again, with Kenneth. There was only two of us, and urm, some friends. His friendster friends. Of course I did get to know them abit later on, and we talked and played games, but the most important thing is that, we talked about lots of stuff. About ladies, work, studies, friends, and I do realise that we're not quite different from each other, except some of our perspectives, and a little bit on the way we think. I really would appreciate a friend like you. And Redd, you have been guilty tonight. Charged with FFKness. Lawl.

I wouldn't be writing much tonight. Pretty sleepy, but Veen, I hope you'll pull yourself through this stuff soon. I'll try my best to be there for you whenever you need me, and if you really do need help, tell me. It may be a little too late the day you read this blog, and you may be surprised, but I'll tell you abit it someday later, I think, when I'm ready to show you. But I do know, that you'll call whenever you need me to be at your side, and you can count on me. It applies to everyone, not only you, cos I know, I would try my best to help anyone who's in trouble. I'm sure someone else will return the favour when I'm in trouble myself. God Bless.

Gents, lads and dates.

Arrr... Shit. I wrote everything but I forgot to save them, and now I've to write them over again. Oh well, I went clubbing again, yesterday night. Damn, Kenneth, you've slacked out dude. You've been drunk for two nights in a row lol. How can you let this happen? You were one of the most steady guy among us. But well, the night turned out to be good. Everyone had fun, and most of you were too tipsy to even walk in a straight line.

I went back home that night, late, errr, or I would rather say early? 4.30 am. I got home, took my shoes off, threw my socks and shirt into the laundry basket, and poof, a nice hot bath. But there's one problem. I couldn't sleep till my work is done. Damn elective reports. Oh well, I practically did nothing for them, except wasting my time in cyber-cafes, and of course, play some tournaments. It has been quite some time since we've won any tourneys. Things haven't been going on well, and with my current teammates, we haven't really been doing anything or have any training. I wonder how things are gonna turn out for SMM.

I came outta the bathroom, and I got straight to work. But I did talk to Veen too. She's been complaining to me about him, the other guy, or I would rather say, her so-called-boyfriend. Things between them haven't been going on well. I don't know why she tells nobody else but me, but this is abit odd you know. Telling your ex about your present. Heh. But its cool, I can take it. But there's something that I don't really understand. If you know that its not gonna work, why bother dragging. I personally think that you need more courage and determination in yourself, Veen.

You know, there are things that I don't really understand about guy, eventhough I'm one of those typical guys. We all would say that, younger guys are childish. It is really that bad, that older girls would usually try to avoid dating younger guys. I agree, they can be immatured, and sometimes, even annoying and irritating. But, talk about dating older guys. I am surprised myself, when I look at things that has happened between my girl-friends, and their partners. Is it really true, that guys turn possesive and insecured when they age? Or is it just that they're looking for something different in their partners? I don't really know, I'm not there yet.

Almost everyone tell me that trust is an important essence in a relationship. BUT, ask yourselves. How many of you practice what you're telling me? How many of you, really trust your partner enough? I wouldn't say that you should trust your partner in everything that she or he says or does, but you should trust them to a certain extent. I used to be someone who's curious and suspicious of my partner. I always wanted to find out what she's doing, where she's going or where she's at, who she's with, but, does it really matters? Personally I think, you should let your partner know your plans, so that he or she wouldn't be worried about you, or they know where to look for you if there's anything urgent. I really don't understand, how can guys and girls, think so primitively, or think so much, that they can even visualise things that wouldn't come across your mind. Some parents and partners can be so insecured, that they would assume that you're gonna cheat or lie to them anytime.

C'mon people, is this a sign of insecurity, immaturity, or is it just another plain malaysian attitude or way of thinking? I can't really give you an answer for this, but I PERSONALLY THINK, this is dumb. I believe that everyone knows their limit, to a certain extent. Some people might overdo things, but when they look back someday, I'm sure they will know.

When I saw you today Veen, you changed alot. We talked alot during lunch, and you complained about him alot. Sometimes, I do really feel the empathy for you. But oh well, I now think, that you are more matured in the way you think, but infront of me, I think, only to me, you're always that kiddo girl who wants attention. I really hope you'll be fine, and you'll get over this as soon as possible. I've changed alot too, I know. The relationship, breaking up period and there after, I've learned alot, and I've also learned to look at things from a different way, different perspectives. Howeverm, I still think that I'm quite indecisive and I think I don't have enough confidence. You've always said that I'm much more matured than alot of guys. I sorta like agree now, from what I've seen.

You know, sending you to Sentral today... I kinda felt awkward when you gave me that. Even though I was longing for it, and I've missed you, but... Still, it feels odd. Not that I didn't want it, or I didn't like it, I just don't know how to describe my feelings. You know, you sorta like... Made me fall for you again. Eventhough mum previously told me that I shouldn't get myself involved in things that have already passed, I'm still in a dilemma myself. I do hope that things will work out well in its ways for you, Veen. I'll pray for you too.

Well, I'm still quite excited to meet a friend who'll be back in KL by next week or so. I've got a date with her, for a lunch at a place that I've never been before. She's smart, charming, cool, and pretty deadly with her tongue. She bites with her words, if you're not careful. :P . Is that abit too much of credit for you, young lady? You know, you seem to be someone who knows alot about stuff, good at words, and its kinda challenging talking to you when you are filled with melancholy, sarcasm and cynicism. I'm really looking forward to meet you soon, and to know you better, cos you seem like a pretty interesting person to discover.

I should go to bed. Slept only 4 hours yesterday. Damn, clubbing again for tonight =). Well, we'll see how things take their path, and I hope everything will turn out for the better for all of us, especially you Veen.

Wassup? It's been quite a period.

Hello bloggie. It has been quite some time since I last blogged. A few days I guess. I first I thought it wasn't that happening, and nothing much has happened since the past few days... But when I looked back... Wow. I wouldn't say that I'm quite a happening guy. I would rather name myself after urrrr.. myself? Jo El used to equate me with entertainment, Dan = Entertainment. Awww... Too bad he's gone now, and I miss him too. He was a good housemate, a good friend.

Enough about old skool stories. On monday, I went to play squash with Mikee and the rest again. She was enthusiastic bright, but yet, something tells me that she's been keeping alot of secrets in her heart. They way she played cards by herself, and that thing she said to me, keeps me wondering all this while. What has happened in the past? Something bad? I don't know. She refuses to elaborate further, and I didn't want to ask. I guess sometimes its better to leave things the way it is. Oh well, we did break the record of 10 hits. Hah, that's how good our squash is. Laugh all you want. :p The only person who would be reading this and laugh, would be you, Amanda, I think. This blog is supposed to be kept for myself only, but well, guys are guys. They give in to girls. Sadly.

And then, my usual self. Being lazy and procastinative, I now think that I have a long list, or rather I would say, dozens of work to do. but oh well, I'm being myself. I was absent from class for 2 days, and Shin Yee keeps saying that she'll strangle me for all the time that I wasn't in class. And yet, she complains that she has to read miniature version of journals. She even measured how thick the journals are. lol. Whatever you can do when you're desperate I guess. :p Don't get angry at me for typing this, if you ever read this in the later days. Heh.

I went clubbing tonight. Errrrr, #%*@$@). So called clubbing. Euphoria, Ministry of Sound. A screwed up place. F**ked up man. The Malaysian version of this "high class" club sucks. I've always wondered, which idiot would line up to pay to enter the club. Its freaking expensive, and all the bouncers think that you can't afford it. Damn. I wonder how'd you live with a club like that, but yet, there were dozens, or I would say, more people than you'll ever see lining up to enter a haunted house, damn. They were sweating like pigs, as it was freaking hot in the corridor, and yet, Malaysians, with their kaypo attitude of curiosity, would endure this pain to enter a club. Omfg. They drive like nuts. Probably this is where their patience were channeled to. Too bad, we didn't enter the club. I guess some other time, when all of us can afford it better, we'll dump bottles at the bouncers.

Ah, well, the good part. I was in bambo9 for their 1st ever anniversary tonight. The first time I clubbed with Sharon today, errr, again, so called clubbed. As usual, the hot chique. lol. Trying to dance her way by herself, and you, Redd... Dot dot dot. Not only that I felt odd to dance with a good friend, but all the things that we've shared, your problems, mine, whatever and whatsoever that you can think of. Probably its about time to put aside my consience and conciousness. I would, go and dance with her, the next time I have the chance to. Then, there was this girl at the other table behind us. Damn. Now that I think cindians rocks baby! Her name is Michelle, so I guessed from her msn. Hmmmph. She was hot, open minded, friendly, nice, bla bla bla.... whatever you can think of that you want a CHIQUE to be.

For the very first time, I have chiques throwing ice over my head, then come to me and ask me if I'm okay. Well, strike the jackpot baby. I told her that I'm oaky, still awake. She says: ARE YOU SURE? LET ME HELP YOU. *grabs a bunch of ice from the ice container and rubs them on my face* . Damn. She asked again: ARE YOU STILL OKAY? DID I DO ANYTHING TO YOU? Wowowo, of course, I said no. Errr, this time I have coke with ice. On the face. Then she asked again: ARE YOU SURE YOU'RE OKAY? Yeah. She: ARE YOU WET? Errr... NOt really? Then I got a big piece of ice rubbed and poked into my mouth. Lol. Damn, where would you find a girl who would do such things? HEH. But its cool, she did talk abit of nonsense, and gave us her msn.

But well, the bad part is... I spent like 100 bucks for bacardi shots. Rapsberry konon. Tastes like fever medication. But oh well, the shot girls are persistent, and they are good at persuasion. Feels like Chen. Holy persuasion. Converts a creep to fight by your side. =.=

Veen's coming down tomorrow. I wonder what's gonna happen. Ahem, probably I wondered too much by myself. Now that I don't think anything's gonna happen. Damn, potong stim right. Then, I'm still all eager to meet her. Not to say that I really missed her, but yes, I do, at times. And alot of people do find it a little odd. Girls are complicated. Really complicated. I have no idea. Lets see how things are gonna swing tomorrow. Good luck to myself.

I should go to bed. Left with like 3 hours to sleep lol. Good night.